Musings of My Mind

I recently mourned my 29th birthday, it's tragic to me to think that I am in the last year of my twenties.  I will then reach "middle age" where I am told I will finally start becoming a little smart.(Or so I am told by a very "wise" 35 year old)  I guess that is a perk of being "not so young", however I am rather fond of my ignorance toward life.  I guess to me if graduating from college, giving birth to three children, paying lots of bills and having a successful marriage for the last ten years hasn't given me any life "smarts" then I don't really want them! I don't claim to "know it all" by any means, but I don't appreciate being called stupid!

In preparation for my pending oldness, I have been having these strange old people promonitions.  For example; I have this pressing need to go to bed ridiculously early and get up at an uncanny hour every morning.  It makes me feel strong, accomplished, and a lot like my across-the-street neighbor.  I am recently obsessed with historical facts, particularly WWII. The more I study the more I find that we may be rapidly moving into a socialistic society, not all that different from the cause of the big war.

However the most recent event that helped me realize my "soon to be mature" self, occurred at our Stake Conference a couple weeks ago.  Our Stake President encouraged all of us to begin a life history.  Normally that "encouragement" wouldn't have been meant for me, but for all the older people in the room.  The idea struck me as something I really needed to do though, and right away! You see, I am afraid that in my old age my mind will not be able to remember a lot of things that I experience now. What if I can't remember to way we all squeal with delight when Hagen actually pees in the toilet? What if I forget the way Kallie's pigtails bounce when she walks in from the bus, dragging her coat through the mud? What if I didn't document the fact that cutting Cole's fingernails is the single most dreaded moment of his week?  The fact is, if I don't write it down I will forget. I have already forgotten so many things!

The need to document our present life is ever pressing on my mind, and I feel like this blog portrays our "now" pretty good.  The past is past, but it is still a very important part of who I am.  I want my kids to know me "way back when", so in an attempt to follow the guidance and inspiration of our leaders I am going to begin inserting snipets of my life before.... so stay tuned for a blast from the past!